Transformation can sometimes feel traumatizing...
Hello Dear Ones…
I’m writing to you from my personal, ongoing ayahuasca journey. No. No I’m not taking ayahuasca for days on end. This eclipse season FEELS like a never ending ayahuasca journey to me!! 😆😆 There’s the struggling against the ego phase, the purge, then the breakthrough into awe-inspiring insights and transformations. And I seem to keep cycling back around and around, going deeper and higher with each passing of the spiral. It’s been incredibly hard and intense.
Sometimes, our transformations can feel traumatizing. That’s a real thing.
Scorpio rules the subconscious, where all our secrets, woundings, & deepest desires reside. As the deep diver of the zodiac, Scorpio submerges to bring that which is hidden into the light. When the truth emerges, there is a transformation that naturally occurs. With these eclipses, we get to say a big hearty YES for bringing our deepest truths to the surface and allowing the transformations to have their way with us. And you might have been taken so deep that you have the spiritual bends. You might be transforming through the Scorpio stinger.
If you are feeling or ever have felt traumatized by your transformation, here’s what I want to affirm for you….
You are given only what you are ready for. This might make you wanna vomit 😆, I get it. And it’s true. You know it’s true. If it’s in your life, its because you are ready for the growth this curriculum will catalyze. AND…. You can ALWAYS ask for help, support, or a BREAK. Yes, yes you can ask for the work to slow down so you can catch your breath. You can choose to re-align timelines and take the next exit for a bathroom break. You won’t get punished for this. You are held by a loving Universe/God. Sometimes, it helps me to remember this, to truly give myself permission to get off the transformational highway. Usually, my inner warrior will then rise up and keep going. But once upon a time, I took that exit, and it was the most loving thing I could have given myself.
Healing work works. Yes, sometimes it feels like it’s gonna go on FOR FUCKING EVER! And, although the journey of expansion is an infinite one, therefore we’re always uncovering ways we hold back, ways we limit ourselves... a particular healing thread that you are experiencing here on Earth can have a beginning, a middle, AND AN END. The not-enough-ness, the too-much-ness, the fears, the yearnings…. If you keep doing the work, you will heal. Does it take more than one incarnation to reach the end of a particular thread of healing? Possibly. AND, it can also complete itself for you IN THIS LIFETIME! If you are choosing to be conscious, if you are dedicated to doing the inner work, HEALING happens. Keep doing your good work!
The people in your life are not the humans they are playing. They are Angels and Wizards and Ancient Interplanetary Beings and Earth Masters. They are here to support your mission, or to catalyze your mission (sometimes both). BOTH BLESSINGS. However, a catalyst is a catalyst. If someone is here to catalyze your growth, it will be through challenge. Accept the challenge. And whether that challenge is to rise up in anger, to courageously say NO, or to let go of all those nagging expectations… don’t by-pass the challenge. Even if you can see the wizard behind the human mask. LEAN IN and let your human have its say.
And finally, you can trust the river of life, my friend. Wherever you are in your journey, you can trust the curriculum in front of you. Lean in. Let it annihilate you. Let it shred your ego, break open your heart, bring you to the edge of your human capacity… let the catalysts catalyze your growth. I swear to you that it is FOR YOU and not against you. For what’s on the other side is your greater expansion, your more authentic self, your ability to know and experience MORE of LOVE.
The current eclipse season will complete itself with our Total Lunar Eclipse this coming Tues, Nov 8. I spend love and prayers to your deepest transformations! If I can be of support through private sessions, reach out.
TO THE DEPTHS!